I’ve Still Quit – Day 8 – Everything Stinks

So it has been a full week without tobacco. I have still been taking hits off of the vaporizer for the past two days. That is kind of disappointing to me because I wanted to be completely nicotine free.

This is only the first step. I only have one thing of nicotine vaporizer juice and I don’t plan on getting anymore when it runs out. I’ll probably even sell the vapor device on kijiji.

I don’t know if it is unhealthy or not but my concern is that it is still addictive. I don’t want to have to rely on anything to get me through the day. I will only use my pure unbreakable spirit and willpower to get me through.

I actually have quit many times. For a few months it seemed like I tried to quit on an almost weekly basis. The only problem with that was, as soon as I got back to work I walked into a stressful situation and my main coping mechanism was to light up a butt.

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It is kind of sad to think about all of the money that I wasted in the past as well. I figure that it is about $5 per day for the past decade that iv’e spent on cigarettes. 5 x 3650 = $18250.

I don’t think that there is an emoticon that can properly display my complete disgust with myself when I consider those numbers. Whats worse is that it was a low estimate. Iv’e been smoking for longer than 10 years. It is only for the past 10 years, I have had a steady source of income.

It’s pathetic to think that I am more worried about my finances than my health though. I have seen the entire world realize that they cause cancer and I just kept on happily smoking those coffin nails.

Thanks for reading this little blurb that I had to get out. Writing it has helped the cravings to pass. I wonder how long it will be until I stop thinking about the habit that I have carried with me for more than half of my life.

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